Revelations - Experimental Arts

I've done some "soul searching" via taking a cold shower with the AC on, and I think I've realize a few things.

First, I love to draw on people free hand. And completely out of my own inspiration, not jus someone's idea of what they want. It made me think - I know people wouldn't really be interested in letting me draw on them for a career, but what about manequinnes (sp?)? I only wish I knew where to find some though...

Also, I plan on creating a large story board that will depict my creation of the human body and will be titled "How to Build a Human". I'm going to start presketches this weekend and then start the big work when school gets out. I'm just scared of how big it's actually going to get.

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David is letting me borrow his copy of Death Note the movie. I watched pretty much up to the part when L begins to taunt Light into making a mistake of revealing some vital clues as to how he commits his "murders". Personally, I side with Light - the murderers of this world are going unpunished everyday and our society just becomes sicker and sicker with the cancers of the new wonders borne into our world. It's sad to see little girls dressing as hookers and to hear that teenagers my age are having issues that should have hit them later in life.

In other words, I'm loving the movie. I feel asleep though because crying this afetrnoon made me exhausted.

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My friend Allison and I have been talking about getting more into EGA and EGL and it's times like these I wish I didn't have the gender I was assigned. I'd love to come to school in EGA everyday and be a polite gentleman and be a seductive whisper on the lips of courtly ladies. But nope. Fucking X chromosomes. Oh well.
I wish I had a Lolita dress pattern - I'd love to make at least one dress once. But for now, I will just search for an appropriate hat to go with my EGA male costume.

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I think I want one of my best friends to be my boyfriend. Britt already knows about this issue. I'm just scared. I know he's attracted to me and would treat me right and hell, he's pretty much my cup of tea - he lets me draw on him, is a bit of pervert (which I don't mind), respects me, has his intelligent moments, can be there for me when I need him, is older than me, taller than me, and looks Asian (though he's not). But I'm afraid that if I tried to change him, he might change for the worse, and I'd lose a dear friend.
I think the only changes I'd even ask him to make would be to wear a belt, use Phoenix Axe body wash and spray (I LOVE THAT SMELL - TIS THE SMELL OF RPG's FEATURING BISHIES!), and not make literal shit jokes around me (I can't stand people who joke about actual crap, it's gross and BLEHHH!).
If I asked him to change...would I have to change as well...? And in what ways?

If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?

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I want a ball jointed doll *_* Pretty.
I found her again! http://www.pullipstyle.com/nomado.htm